Yeah!!

心里的那个疑问终于被解答了。。。
哈哈。。。
不懂为什么我会那么地开心。。。
我的心。。。整个都轻了。。。><
无论如何。。。
还是要奖励自己。。。奖励自己那么的勇敢。。。^^

他。。。是我认识的那个他吗？？

有些后悔当天答应朋友和他们出去见面。。。><

因为他也有在。。。

好矛盾。。。

想见到他但。。。

唉。。。

那天我们去看戏。。。

因为时间没到所以我们去吃东西。。。

当时我们一面吃一面等他。。。

听到他也会来，有点开心。。。

当我们要去付钱时，正好他也刚到。。。

他。。。站在外头和我另一个朋友聊天。。。

走出店面。。。就看见他在抽烟。。。

他那抽烟的样子，就像那种samseng人抽烟的样子。。。><

Oh no.....那一瞬间，我的心痛了一下。。。他，让我觉得好陌生。。。

我认识的他不是这个样子！

以前的他，是个热情的人。。。现在的他。。。有些冷淡。。。

他对我好冷淡。。。

那一天。。。我有些不开心。。。不懂为什么。。。

是因为他吗？？

或许吧。。。

算了。。。

不想了。。。但愿他能走出我的心。。。或许一直以来只有我一厢情愿。。。

@#$#%$^%&**

what can i do??

I had finished watching a taiwan drama within 3 days...

now what can i do??

*yawn*

later go popular buy some books to read...

hmm...

need to go bank also...

argh....today is friday~one week is almost finished....gonna step into the second week of my sembreak~

hmm....the weather in SP is so warm..hoo...I cant stand with it...alot of mosquitoes appear...

argh!!!!!!hate it.....cause me cant sleep well every night....hate u mosquitoes!!!!

well....last sunday mom,eldest sister,me and two brothers went to eat korean food as our dinner..

hern!not nice oso!!some more no quality!the service is so lame!...my sister accidently ate a small fragment of rubber band!haha...what la...next time don't go there anymore!

wow....my mom cooked all the dishes i like...haha...><....happy....

I admit i eat alot during my sembreak....hopefully can gain weight!^^

oh ya...i have to end here...gonna prepare to go out...!^^

what I want to say~~

yuhooo!!!

sembreak!!!

finally...

after the last paper we girls QAYM went to sunway pyramid...

very enjoyed~

especially skating!!

yoyoyo...

I am loving it!!

first time went to skate...somemore met my old primary classmate there

><...so excited...my greatgrandpa skated also

well.....initially i totally dare not to try...

because i scared to fall down..

....hahaha...

but after encouraged by my greadgranpa and Mun...

i tried..><

Mun knows the basic...so she taught me...

after that mun,me and my friend(greadgrandpa) were trying to skate one round...

we were holding each other hand and skated...

so nice!!><

after that i started to fall down...

TT

I tried for many times...I kept telling myself that i could do it!

well,I did it...but only could stand and walk stablely...=.=

my greadgrandpa's friend taught me how to skate...

hoho...finally I could do it!!

but just can move a little bit...

during that time i was also fell down many many times..

somemore knocked my head!..ouch...got bruish...

my knees,elbows got hurt...

damn embarrassed man!

but it's okay for me...^^

thanks to that guy for teaching me til i know how to skate abit...

mun mun also not bad!hahaha

after that we skated together...

fell down together..

so embarrassed!!!

haiz....

for this sem i feel that my coursework marks for all subjects are damn low...

i don't know why...felt like no motivated at all during my this sem...

i was so careless...

i shouldn't "abandone" maths...

i thought my math got no problem...

the subject i worried most was csc..

but!!!

 in final csc and bio i felt gt no big problem...

english and math!!!

argh!!

i did very bad in final!!!

especially math!!!

i gonna die...

no more A...

no more A-...

hopefully can get a B+!!

><..

sad...

down..

but..

what to do??i have to accept the truth...

*sigh*

I don't know why...

during the final week i felt so down and emo...

easily to lost control...

i mean i couldn't control my mood...my tears...

i felt my heart got lotsa things stucked in it...

~gonna be suffocating~

i kept expressing my bad feeling to my god...

He is always so lovely and kind!

He is the one who willing to listen to my complainess..sad stories...

Blog~~is also the placa for me to express my feeling..^^

I admit i ain't like to share my problem with others...my family..my friends....

I prefer to keep it in my heart...

I like to be a listener...

haha...

weird..

maybe i am quite "kepo"...perhaps...

I care how people look at me..really...

I also don't know why...

but it makes me feel very tired..

I hate to pretend...

For those who aren't really know about me,please don't ever judge my characteristics ....

the phase u see and know may just an imaginary part..

my real phase...I like to hide it...even my family members can't know it...

........

for those i had sinned against....

thousand of apologizes I have to say...

sometimes my words are quite hurt and the tone may quite rude when giving comment....

but one thing i can confirm is...

i will only be like that when i gv comments to the one who I really care about...

><

I know most of the people may feel that it is unreasonable...

....

I will try my best to change my shit attitude....^^

but...

I realize that since I study at outside...

I change alot...

better than before.....

=p

seriously...I just want to be myself!

Parents are the best!!

Lord is good all the time...!!

My siblings...are also the best!!

~only them will forgive me every time i do wrong~

^^

sick!!!

wuwuwuw.....bio over~~

english and moral were also done....

hmm....2moro gonna fight with CSC!!!

so worried~><

what should i do??

grr...

feel like no motivated!!

ha!!

this few days not feeling well...

sick~

exam

home

and

.

.

.

migraine!!

this few days the weather is freaking hot!!

make me feel uncomfortable!

grr....

gonna study my CSC

if not...

will die 2moro..

hmm...

thats all....

*tata*

haiz~~2moro early morning has bio exam...2pm got english~~

bio bio~~hopefully i can vomit out all the things i had studied on that time!!!

csc...math~~then sembreak..yuhoo..

but...i am worried with my csc..TT...

i don know y this sem all my coursework marks drop badly...sigh*

izzit too free or..?I need kinetic energy wei~~><

I really hope my results on this sem will maintain...plz don drop!!!!!!!

sometimes i might shed tears at night...haiz...but after that i feel okay dy~just wanna release my unhappiness and stress in my heart~~

I need support from my family...I am not a strong girl actually...what they know and see is just from my outer part...@@...

now i study alone outside...the only one who can let me rely is God~~I love U god~~thank you for giving me everything when i pray from u and ask from u even i am not ur good daughter...

I think u are the one who knows my secret the most..^^.....

yeah~~today is the last day for me to revise again my bio!!gambateh annie!u can do it!!

QYM~~gambateh too u all!!^^

My homesickness had been overcome..^^

Tired...exhauted....departed from my hometown at around 2pm and reached my hostel at 8.30pm..@@

today was quite late compared to last time....

my uncle couldn't drive fast because there were alot of cars along our journey...haiz...

i reached Kepong KTM at 6.15pm....

gosh!!during my way back, i was almost suffocating...somemore got one guy kept coughing..he sat beside me..@@

i scared to get H1N1~~><

i reached Nilai at 7.35pm...

shit!!!had to wait for almost 30min only got bus...lame service!!!

wasted my time...

the moment i entered my room,i quickly put my stuff and rushed to bathe...it's freaking hot..i sweat alot..

after finished bathing,i switched on my laptop...as usual..i online..

walao!!intiline really sucks!!...have to use wireless again...kept dc just now...now ok already...thank god...

i just finished practising for my tomorrow presentation...hopefully can go smoothly 2moro....^^

hopefully i can remember and won't lag when presenting...haha...

hmm...oh ya...keep talking crap...

i need to talk about the major things...

haha....actually i gonna followed my cousin brother back JB on friday...but because i still hadn't done my csc assignment and slides so i finally rejected....sweat..

but i tried my best to finish it on thursday night...i did it til 2am..finally completed...

and i planned to finish my slides on friday early morning...but i couldn't wake up on time..haha..

everything was arranged by god ya...the moment i switched off my alarm and slept back..my uncle called me..

he asked whether i wanted to back Sp with them or not...haha...

i rejected it also because i wanted to do my slides...

but after thinking i decided to back with them...><....missed home so much despite sembreak is coming soon..hahaha....

well....it is easter day today...haha.....so happy....but i haven't done comfession...haiz....feel sinful...last few weeks i wanted to do but i was doing treatment...no time to go to church...sweat...

never mind.....hmm....God won't blame me..=p

final is approaching....i gonna study and fight for it!!!!hopefully it goes smoothly....

God plz bless me and help me...accompany me to finish all the papers ya..^^..amen~~