what I want to say~~

yuhooo!!!

sembreak!!!

finally...

after the last paper we girls QAYM went to sunway pyramid...

very enjoyed~

especially skating!!

yoyoyo...

I am loving it!!

first time went to skate...somemore met my old primary classmate there

><...so excited...my greatgrandpa skated also

well.....initially i totally dare not to try...

because i scared to fall down..

....hahaha...

but after encouraged by my greadgranpa and Mun...

i tried..><

Mun knows the basic...so she taught me...

after that mun,me and my friend(greadgrandpa) were trying to skate one round...

we were holding each other hand and skated...

so nice!!><

after that i started to fall down...

TT

I tried for many times...I kept telling myself that i could do it!

well,I did it...but only could stand and walk stablely...=.=

my greadgrandpa's friend taught me how to skate...

hoho...finally I could do it!!

but just can move a little bit...

during that time i was also fell down many many times..

somemore knocked my head!..ouch...got bruish...

my knees,elbows got hurt...

damn embarrassed man!

but it's okay for me...^^

thanks to that guy for teaching me til i know how to skate abit...

mun mun also not bad!hahaha

after that we skated together...

fell down together..

so embarrassed!!!

haiz....

for this sem i feel that my coursework marks for all subjects are damn low...

i don't know why...felt like no motivated at all during my this sem...

i was so careless...

i shouldn't "abandone" maths...

i thought my math got no problem...

the subject i worried most was csc..

but!!!

 in final csc and bio i felt gt no big problem...

english and math!!!

argh!!

i did very bad in final!!!

especially math!!!

i gonna die...

no more A...

no more A-...

hopefully can get a B+!!

><..

sad...

down..

but..

what to do??i have to accept the truth...

*sigh*

I don't know why...

during the final week i felt so down and emo...

easily to lost control...

i mean i couldn't control my mood...my tears...

i felt my heart got lotsa things stucked in it...

~gonna be suffocating~

i kept expressing my bad feeling to my god...

He is always so lovely and kind!

He is the one who willing to listen to my complainess..sad stories...

Blog~~is also the placa for me to express my feeling..^^

I admit i ain't like to share my problem with others...my family..my friends....

I prefer to keep it in my heart...

I like to be a listener...

haha...

weird..

maybe i am quite "kepo"...perhaps...

I care how people look at me..really...

I also don't know why...

but it makes me feel very tired..

I hate to pretend...

For those who aren't really know about me,please don't ever judge my characteristics ....

the phase u see and know may just an imaginary part..

my real phase...I like to hide it...even my family members can't know it...

........

for those i had sinned against....

thousand of apologizes I have to say...

sometimes my words are quite hurt and the tone may quite rude when giving comment....

but one thing i can confirm is...

i will only be like that when i gv comments to the one who I really care about...

><

I know most of the people may feel that it is unreasonable...

....

I will try my best to change my shit attitude....^^

but...

I realize that since I study at outside...

I change alot...

better than before.....

=p

seriously...I just want to be myself!

Parents are the best!!

Lord is good all the time...!!

My siblings...are also the best!!

~only them will forgive me every time i do wrong~

^^