Together Change Create!

I just back from a camp!
It was hold by Gen X International!
This was a basic camp which title was:
-Together同行 Change改变 Create创造-
This camp had 3 main processes. The first process was "Intense and Mechanism" means 目标与方法.
well,the process rule was v have to use one different way from other people to cross from one side to another side~this camp had 350 participants!means in this process there will have 350 walking ways to cross to other side!hahaha...I was thinking what way should i use to pass the process...Due to many people q up behind chairs to wait for their turns,so i just waiting at behind of them...This scene is just like i m standing in a wide square and there are a lot a lot of  obstacles in front of me!I cant clearly see where is my intention!In this process,all of them have one intention,there was cross to other side!Of course this process has reflected my life!I need to find ways to achieve my intention!In this process,I really cant imagine that I could do something that was very embarrassing!><....but,I had no choice!all of the easy n nice styles had been using by other people!I cared others comments n i was a thin face person...but!I broke through my weaknesses in this process!!haha..because to cross to other side, I forced myself to unload my ugly shell!n when i reached to other side successfully,I felt very elated!I couldn't imagine how dare was I!=)....actually,the message that wanted to bring out to us was we have to have 100% intention!this means v have to 100% clearly know what is our dreams!no matter how hard is it to achieve it,v have to do sacrificed!
The second process was "the pole"~hmm....every team will get a long pipe...and then v have to use our two hands' of one finger to lift up the pipe n then put it down to the floor...all of our fingers must touch the pipe when putting down the pipe together~This process was testing our concentration~u may feel it is very easy to do it but!it's not!my team had tried many times with different ways but still failed!v redo n redo the process again until getting frustrated!I admit i was did well in this process!=p...when i saw my teammate did bad n made our group to fail in this process after many times of failure,i started to get mad n wanna scold them!but!I controlled my emotion!i very happy because i got changed from my weakness!I easily to get mad b4!=)..however,the other way to pass the process was ignore others voices (distractions)!I did it also!=)....after trying hard finally v did it!!!yeah!!!
The third process was "the voice"..The voice means distraction from other people..well,i think every one will have such experience also which is when u want to make a good decision however in your heart u can hear that there is another voice drag u out!this one was fantastic!everyone had to stand on a chair one by one to shout out our own intentions and at the same time the rest would be the evil voices that distracted the person.wao!i saw some of the participants cried n some of them dared not to shout out when standing on the chair..hmm...for me i did it!!i shouted till sore throat!><..this process aimed to let us break through our fear...fear of how people looking at them,fear of facing rejection after showing plan,fear of face to face talking with people...
This camp is awesome!From there I really can 100% make sure what is my intention or dream!Not only that,in the last section before camp ended there was a E&E - Encourage and Empower~I like this section very much!We had to write to our leaders,up lines,group members or any one that we wanted to thank and encourage.I received many papers...The feeling when I received the papers was...happy and touched!seriously...I could feel the warm caring from other people that I just knew them during in camp!V were just like in one big family,brothers and sisters!
I like Gen X!Instead of earning money,this is a good platform for me to learn and make a change because when expose to this career all of your weaknesses can be appeared!=)...seriously I realized actually I have this kind of weaknesses that I never realized before after joining this big family!!!
Gen X brothers and sisters!Let's fight for our dreams!!!Roar!!!

Turning Point 转捩点

29th Oct - 31st Nov, I had joined a camp which was GEN X INTERNATIONAL YEAR END CAMP.The title for this camp was— Turning Point 转捩点.
I was a tiring camp but I was very enjoyed because I had found my turning point in my live!
hehe....
Before that,I was thinking whether wanna join this camp or not because the camp fees was minimum RM300.
Well,I made a decision finally!I joined!
No regret,I really found my turning point from this camp!Thx for the person who convinced me to go!
In this camp,I had gone through 3 processes which were 'GRID','扛人' and 'REUNION'.
From the 3 processes,I realized that I have to be focus,be responsible,work hard,don't easily give up,encouragement and teamwork!This few key points are very paramount in our real live~
'Mentality controls body'-I like this phrase damn much!
'Ignore Distractions','Don't expect others to do for you but let others to expect on you' and 'Be Confident'.
This all words have inspired me damn much!
I was very passive before.I used to expect others to approach me,talk with me and also order me to do work.I was lack of confidence.I used to doubt.I used to care how others looked at me and their comments.
But now,I found my turning point!^^
I changed my stupid styles and think mature since I joined Qnet!=)
I want to be different from others!
Impossible Is Nothing!
Yeah~

hurray!

lalalalalalala~
finally i am graduated from my foundation!
wow..time flies damn fast...><...
think of the hard time..the moment i had to make a decision...i quit form6 and rushed to masterskill there to register...shit!finally i chose back to study in Inti...
think of my first sem...awesome!I love the sem so much...hang out with friends...studied hard for our first sem exam....
think of my 2nd sem...hmm...no more motivation...my results dropped....but I was so relax and free during this sem....
3rd sem...hmm....no more relax time....3 science subjects...killing me...however i had finished my foundation course 2day!!yay!!
don't bother so much...just wanna relax...I feel so excited when thinking about my degree...XD...
well......I have to clean up my room...be ready to move out...but...where can i put my stuff?my parents don't want drive here to carry back my stuff..TT
haiz...hate....
hmm....oh ya...just back from my dear's house...hmm...had dinner at his home oso...><'''so nervous because I had dinner together with his family...^^
blablabla...4 months break!!!!not satisfied!i wanna start my degree as soon as possible!!

bla bla bla...

wao...

long time no update my blog...

i was busy and lazy to update...

today so free...so i wanna update it..hehe

Firstly....

last friday i back to my hometown...celebrating St.Anne...hehe

yeah..finally saw my puppies...

so sad...my mom gave the puppy to my ah ma...I want that puppy...but....haiz...

My ah ma's puppy...TT

This is mine....^^

Haiz....never mind....my puppy is also very cute...damn independent and naughty~he loves to eat soil..@@

on the table...he dare not to jump down since last time he had hurt his leg when jumped from my dad's car...haha

Mico (brown color) tried to rescue him..hehe..actually there was a bowl on the table and inside got food..haha..he just wanted the food!

They stand by.....to go out...

hmm....

on saturday night v went to Bukit Mertajam which the St.Anne church is there....

Old St.Anne church (100++ years)

there is a new church beside it...very nice!^^....there are many people from all around the corners and countries come here to pray....different religion and races...they pray to St.Anne-mother of Mary...Jesus's grandmom...

well.....last wednesday i din go out for my dinner because i had to prepare for my chem test 2...hehe..my dear roommate cooked spagetti for me....=)

yummy~

 during studying my chemistry...I drew something...hmm...I couldn't control myself for "conteng"...@@

Last few week....10/7/10...went out with dear...we went to one utama...hehe...I bought 4 shirts at once...=.=lll..almost rm100...

not only that...i saw something that exciting me....hehe..deng deng deng deng!!

I just took some pictures....hehe....quite nice...they were selling the drawing....damn expensive too....

before back to nilai,we went to KLCC~hohoho...

Nice view!!...ah pin damn like to see it during at night...me too!^^

unlucky...

I hate the feeling of vomit!vuek....

haiz...last sunday after back from church,i had my lunch at Mei Xing...

hmm...i had mix rice...vege and meats...they seemed like very tasty...=p

shit!in the afternoon i drank "ling yang" then went to take a nap..

@$#%$^.....i started to have stomachache..grr...i thought got wind inside my stomach..i kept applying "wind oil"...ate "pou zai yun"...but useless..T.T

then i went out for dinner with friends...I thought after drinking ENO could feel better...haiz...same...i just drank half then i couldn't stand with it..i went back to my room...suddenly felt wanna puke!I was puking in the toilet of bistro palma...=)

ah!i felt damn comfortable after puking all the shitty!

after i puking,i started to get fever...@,@

oh no!i hate the feeling!!

hmm..luckily got dear cooked porridge for me...its white porridge..with kicap and abit vege..@@

I had no appetite to eat...just ate a little bit...I don't like white porridge unless there are something for me to eat with it 2gether..^^

the porridge tasted nice..haha...thx dear!

Now i feel better but my stomach still got abit uncomfortable...>,<

haiz..the chinese medicine are damn bitter...>,<...

what to do...have to finish them...

lalalala

T.T

what's wrong with me????????????!!!!!!!
I seem like easily to forget what I did...
easily left something....
shit!!!!!!!!
2moro I have test....now i only found out I left my pencil case at somewhere...(mayb in COPS)><
T.T
grrr!!!!!!!!

complicated~~

心情好复杂~
I don't know why~
I need a good rest!~

Happy~^^

Hmm....Din't see him for few days...because he is having tournament~
yesterday night v met up....so happy~coz i missed him so much during that few days...lol
haiz....don't know when v can meet up again since his tournament will be ended on next week..(don't know which day~)
yeah...by the way,I am busy too this few days due to the children camp6 is just on this friday...ha!last minute work again...rush rush rush!!!hopefully everything will go smoothly~~^^...god bless me don't fall sick..><

Yeah~~

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yeee~~~my new family member~~one of my dog - Buddy's son......
Name: Moses Lim

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hohoho....left one is mine..right one is belongs to my grandma.....they are brothers~

Miserable.....=(

I have overslept.....I missed my 8am physics class...
arghh~~I should put my hp near to me....my own fault....
@$#%$#%$^$%
Missed the class....I have to study more harder...because I am weak in this subject....
thats why I am so angry with myself...stupid!
emo-ing...since I woke up....
I hate emo-ing but I cannot control myself....T.T
feel like wanna punch something...are u willing to let me punch u??><
isshhh......
children camp is coming....hope I can enjoy with my kid...and hope everything will go smoothly....wish that my helpers won't give me lotsa troubles...><

speechless......

wat to do?
everything comes so fast and goes so fast...
y??
argh....duno want to say wat now...
shit!

why~~???

My chemistry test 1 result is damn bad...TT
I wonder what was I thinking about when answering the questions!
I can do it actually..I did the silly mistakes...thus my marks are damn low...@@
I admit I had not prepared well for all my tests 1....
I don't know why I couldn't focus on my studies before all the tests1...
I felt dizzy every time I studied...shit!
What's wrong with me??
Haiz....I used to emo this few days...alot of troubles keep attacking me....
argh!!!!!!!!!I don't want to be like that!!May I be a normal person please....??
I am tired to face and cope all the problems!enough for me k!
I scared....my GPAs were dropping...hate!I scared I am not qualified to apply the scholarships....
Hope this sem I can maintain or increase~
No more procrastination!No more dreaming!I have to wake up!
lalala......hmm.....weekend again....how do I spend it?
Sleeping?Facebooking?Playing ball??><

my 3 days holiday.....

BORING~
I planned to study my chemistry physics on this 3 days...and of course to finish my reports...
well...on friday the whole day i didn't really do revision...kept facebooking..@@
at night around 10pm i went to play basketball with my friends!wahahaha...damn happy!
we played til around 12am...then went to yamcha...back my room at 2.30am something..
I slept at 5am....haiz..woke up at 12pm...but still felt sleepy!!
so..my saturday just ended up by doing nothing...gosh!!!!
today...hmm....at least got finished 2 chapters of chemistry..haha..
so...hmm...oh ya...my lunch was awesome...haha...my cousins sent the Ham Gai Fan to me and their brother...^^
damn delicious!
well...
i have to rush...rush for doing revision...
gambateh anniething!don't procrastinate again!

最近发生了好多不愉快的事

当然一切都可以很顺利的解决~

但是。。。唯有这件事。。。

哎

人家说 大事要化小 小事要化无~

这句话相信大家都懂，也常这样劝他人~

可是！要办到却不容易~

妈妈的娘家发生了一些事~

其实是很小件事的。。。但不懂为何表姐们和表哥要闹到这么大！

婆婆没被小舅母虐待，这是婆婆亲口发誓说的。。

可是他们姐弟却不信。。。

哎。。。很明显吗。。。他们从小舅母还没嫁给我的小舅就一直在我们的面前说她的是非

她虽然没礼貌，会做作，但怎么说她也是长辈。。。

我就不懂我的小舅母是不是有他们讲的那么糟透。。。没亲眼看见的事是不能乱下评论的~

事情闹到很大。。。妈妈，小姨，四姨。。。就连老舅母都得下去帮忙合解啊！

我的小舅，一直被埋在鼓里。。。直到老舅母告诉他家里发生了这些事他才懂！

公公。。。如果你还健在，那有多好。。。

请您在天上保佑沈家啊~

我好害怕明年的新年不会像以前一样那么的开心，您的孩子子孙或许从这件事发生后开始就反目成仇了。。。

我不要！

求求你要保佑沈家能渡过这一关。。。希望表姐她们姐弟们能够适可而止。。。

可怜的小表妹小表弟们。。。他们还小啊~看了都心疼。。。尤其是刚出世的小表妹。。。她的堂哥堂姐们呢？你们为何不去看看她？？你们不疼她了吗？

小孩是无辜的。。。不要因为讨厌他们的妈妈就不理会他们了好吗？。。。

四个小孩要分开送去托儿所。。。晚上才带回家。。。拜托！这跟孤儿有什么不同？

他们的家境那么好，要风得风，要雨得雨。。。

我的小舅还蛮疼我的。。。记得小时候他很喜欢捏我的鼻子。。。^^

唉。。。公公去世的时候，全家大小都哭得好伤心。。。我记得那时我躲在墙角哭。。。

是我的小舅把我抱在怀里，安慰我。。。

那现在。。。我能为他做些什么呢？？。。。T.T

妈妈告诉我，前几天小舅母带着大女儿出门了，留下两个小表弟和小BABY在家。。。

小舅一个大男人在照顾他们。。。

我的妈妈，小姨和四姨刚好去他家。。。就帮忙照顾那些小瓜~

那个时候，小表弟们很不听话，坐不静的。。。小表妹也发了些脾气而哭了。。。

我的四阿姨问我的小舅能顾得来吗。。。那一瞬间，我的小舅静了好久没回答，然后就红了眼眶。。。我听了。。。心好疼。。。一个那么顽固坚强的小舅竟然会。。。。

表姐们和表哥，求你们收手吧。。。难道要搞到你们的小叔和小婶离婚才满意吗？？

我们是晚辈也！没资格管那么多啊！不要再让婆婆担心好吗？。。。既然你们说婆婆的儿女们没用，胆小，都不管婆婆也不敢帮婆婆出气。。。那么就请你们做好晚辈的工作，不要再闹事了~求求你们了~~

too fast and furious

wuiyoo....
time flies damn fast...
I still cant wake up...@@
this is my last sem and class is officially started yet i still in holiday mood...
hmm....
I hope this sem can end soon.....haha...
I look forward to my degree...!!
excited...
oh ya,just now QAYM were having dinner 2gth in mun's room...
we cooked ABC soup....nice!
haha...
what else....hmm...
suddenly feel that I am so lucky....for no reason...=.=lll
hope everything will go smoothly...

I am back~

woohooo....
back from Malacca trip with my QYM gang just now...
2days1night....hmm...not bad...atleast we could hang around by walking...
It was tired...It was very hot!...we had no car could drive...but it was fun and interesting...hehe...
hmm....we departed at around 11am from inti on tuesday....we arrived our hotel at around 3pm....
after that we went to watch movie...
yo!!IP man 2 is damn damn nice!!!!
I love it so much...I love the style he plays "Yong Chun"....hahaha....
I love the fighting parts....gosh!!
during the trip we bought something from Jonker walk...
after that we back to inti...
time flies damn fast...now is my last sem for my foundation...
Recall back to the time i came to inti....hahaha....speechless....almost one year  i am here....
at the same time my frens who are in form 6 are going to face their STPM this year...
woo...If I was in form 6,I couldn't imagine how was I looked and maybe I was undergone much much stress!
by the way, I sincerely wish my frens can cope the stress and do well in their studies....

Yeah!!

心里的那个疑问终于被解答了。。。
哈哈。。。
不懂为什么我会那么地开心。。。
我的心。。。整个都轻了。。。><
无论如何。。。
还是要奖励自己。。。奖励自己那么的勇敢。。。^^

他。。。是我认识的那个他吗？？

有些后悔当天答应朋友和他们出去见面。。。><

因为他也有在。。。

好矛盾。。。

想见到他但。。。

唉。。。

那天我们去看戏。。。

因为时间没到所以我们去吃东西。。。

当时我们一面吃一面等他。。。

听到他也会来，有点开心。。。

当我们要去付钱时，正好他也刚到。。。

他。。。站在外头和我另一个朋友聊天。。。

走出店面。。。就看见他在抽烟。。。

他那抽烟的样子，就像那种samseng人抽烟的样子。。。><

Oh no.....那一瞬间，我的心痛了一下。。。他，让我觉得好陌生。。。

我认识的他不是这个样子！

以前的他，是个热情的人。。。现在的他。。。有些冷淡。。。

他对我好冷淡。。。

那一天。。。我有些不开心。。。不懂为什么。。。

是因为他吗？？

或许吧。。。

算了。。。

不想了。。。但愿他能走出我的心。。。或许一直以来只有我一厢情愿。。。

@#$#%$^%&**

what can i do??

I had finished watching a taiwan drama within 3 days...

now what can i do??

*yawn*

later go popular buy some books to read...

hmm...

need to go bank also...

argh....today is friday~one week is almost finished....gonna step into the second week of my sembreak~

hmm....the weather in SP is so warm..hoo...I cant stand with it...alot of mosquitoes appear...

argh!!!!!!hate it.....cause me cant sleep well every night....hate u mosquitoes!!!!

well....last sunday mom,eldest sister,me and two brothers went to eat korean food as our dinner..

hern!not nice oso!!some more no quality!the service is so lame!...my sister accidently ate a small fragment of rubber band!haha...what la...next time don't go there anymore!

wow....my mom cooked all the dishes i like...haha...><....happy....

I admit i eat alot during my sembreak....hopefully can gain weight!^^

oh ya...i have to end here...gonna prepare to go out...!^^

what I want to say~~

yuhooo!!!

sembreak!!!

finally...

after the last paper we girls QAYM went to sunway pyramid...

very enjoyed~

especially skating!!

yoyoyo...

I am loving it!!

first time went to skate...somemore met my old primary classmate there

><...so excited...my greatgrandpa skated also

well.....initially i totally dare not to try...

because i scared to fall down..

....hahaha...

but after encouraged by my greadgranpa and Mun...

i tried..><

Mun knows the basic...so she taught me...

after that mun,me and my friend(greadgrandpa) were trying to skate one round...

we were holding each other hand and skated...

so nice!!><

after that i started to fall down...

TT

I tried for many times...I kept telling myself that i could do it!

well,I did it...but only could stand and walk stablely...=.=

my greadgrandpa's friend taught me how to skate...

hoho...finally I could do it!!

but just can move a little bit...

during that time i was also fell down many many times..

somemore knocked my head!..ouch...got bruish...

my knees,elbows got hurt...

damn embarrassed man!

but it's okay for me...^^

thanks to that guy for teaching me til i know how to skate abit...

mun mun also not bad!hahaha

after that we skated together...

fell down together..

so embarrassed!!!

haiz....

for this sem i feel that my coursework marks for all subjects are damn low...

i don't know why...felt like no motivated at all during my this sem...

i was so careless...

i shouldn't "abandone" maths...

i thought my math got no problem...

the subject i worried most was csc..

but!!!

 in final csc and bio i felt gt no big problem...

english and math!!!

argh!!

i did very bad in final!!!

especially math!!!

i gonna die...

no more A...

no more A-...

hopefully can get a B+!!

><..

sad...

down..

but..

what to do??i have to accept the truth...

*sigh*

I don't know why...

during the final week i felt so down and emo...

easily to lost control...

i mean i couldn't control my mood...my tears...

i felt my heart got lotsa things stucked in it...

~gonna be suffocating~

i kept expressing my bad feeling to my god...

He is always so lovely and kind!

He is the one who willing to listen to my complainess..sad stories...

Blog~~is also the placa for me to express my feeling..^^

I admit i ain't like to share my problem with others...my family..my friends....

I prefer to keep it in my heart...

I like to be a listener...

haha...

weird..

maybe i am quite "kepo"...perhaps...

I care how people look at me..really...

I also don't know why...

but it makes me feel very tired..

I hate to pretend...

For those who aren't really know about me,please don't ever judge my characteristics ....

the phase u see and know may just an imaginary part..

my real phase...I like to hide it...even my family members can't know it...

........

for those i had sinned against....

thousand of apologizes I have to say...

sometimes my words are quite hurt and the tone may quite rude when giving comment....

but one thing i can confirm is...

i will only be like that when i gv comments to the one who I really care about...

><

I know most of the people may feel that it is unreasonable...

....

I will try my best to change my shit attitude....^^

but...

I realize that since I study at outside...

I change alot...

better than before.....

=p

seriously...I just want to be myself!

Parents are the best!!

Lord is good all the time...!!

My siblings...are also the best!!

~only them will forgive me every time i do wrong~

^^